In a book- in a box- in the closet
In a line- in a song I once heard
In a moment on a front porch late one june
In a breath inside a whisper beneath the moon

There it was at the tip of my fingers
There it was on the tip of my tounge
There you were and I had never been that far
There it was the whole world wrapped inside my arms
And I let it all slip away..

What do I do now that you’re gone
No back up plan no second chance
And no one else to blame
All I can hear in the silence that remains..
Are the words I couldnt say.

There’s a rain that will never stop fallin
There’s a wall that I tried to take down
What I should have said just wouldnt pass my lips
So I held back and now we’ve come to this
And it’s too late now..

What do I do now that your gone
No back up plan no second chance
And no one else to blame
All I can hear in the silence that remains..
Are the words I couldnt say…

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As the cat, brown
chocolate brown of your eyes
it is thus;
life is a vice
i am a vice
to those who would use me.

as ive told you
ive lost most of my vices
but i manage to pick up
new ones
such are you
flowing green and alive.

And so i create me for you daily
Pour me out with the coffee
fill a white porcelain cup
and im drunk from it.

You are vivid and
hot, perspiring
as sweet scented as pine trees
ive not yet had my fill
i would eat you up with all the cliches
i choked down in love.

‎2011 was a whirlwind of a year for me. I was in love and was so sure , didn’t care of certain things, went to Bali,  heartbreak, called off my relationship, i lost two precious persons, i was in a serious illness, but now happily single, struggled with a loss, traveled all over asia and europe and living a nomad lifestyle and been living in my suitcase, met really great people in Jakarta, HK, Bali and Berlin that i now consider my friends and a part of my life, on a quest to be better person….. It was indeed one hell of a ride. Reflecting on 2011 is bittersweet. I celebrate the good and especially the bad. I could not be happier where i am at right now and truly believe that everything happens for a reason and i am meant to be where i am right now. I don’t know what 2012 has in store for me but i’m hoping it’ll be full of love, laughter and happiness.

I love u guys and I celebrate being a part of ur life. I truly feel honored.

A beautiful thing takes place:
the evil as short as the sound.

the snow has abandoned its whiteness,
the touch its body.

in order to make a blood-
bathed body white again,

we have abandoned
our measures & persuasions:

we have afforded ourselves a joy
of being blind, deaf & dumb.

in their newly created lightness
things bounce and never come back.

What can I do, yeah
What can I do when my thoughts when I’m around
you say you assume me
wonder how I feel about, wonder how I think about
Maybe I’ll go away, maybe I’ll go your way..

To you, to me, to my world, to your world
I’m a feel left out when you feel left out
Is it you, is it me, I’m do it by entering your world
I know how to act, I know how to feel
Around you, about you, how do you feel?

Can I wake up next to you?
Will you wake up next to me?
Tomorrow, forever and ever, I don’t know..
Will you stay right here?
Will you go away?
I feel lost, I feel safe
I don’t know where to belong
To you, to me, to my world, to your world
I’m a feel left out when you feel left out
Is it you, is it me, I’ma do it by entering your world
I know how to act, I know how to feel
Around you, about you, how do you feel?

Can I wake up next to you?
Will you wake up next to me?
Tomorrow, forever and ever, I don’t know..
Will you stay right here?
Will you go away?
I feel lost, I feel safe
I don’t know where to belong.

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Dad.

I don’t know what you want and I don’t know what I have to do with you. Anymore.

Do you still remember
How we used to be
Feeling together, believe in whatever
My love has said to me
Both of us were dreamers
Young love in the sun
Felt like my saviour, my spirit I gave ya
We’d only just begun

Hasta Manana,
Always be mine

Viva forever, I’ll be waiting
Everlasting, like the sun
Live forever,
For the moment
Ever searching for the one

Yes I still remember,
Every whispered word
The touch of your skin, giving life from within
Like a love song that I’d heard
Slipping through our fingers,
Like the sands of time
Promises made, every memory saved
Has reflections in my mind

Hasta Manana,
Always be mine

Back where I belong now,
Was it just a dream
Feelings unfold, they will never be sold
And the secret’s safe with me

Hasta Manana,
Always be mine

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” I’ll pick you up when you’re down. Be there when no-one’s around. “

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“Everyone can lie. But the truth is you.” I lie. I don’t want you to know the truth. |

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“It’s hard to beat a person who never gives up.”