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Good night and sweet dreams. You know who you are.

‎2011 was a whirlwind of a year for me. I was in love and was so sure , didn’t care of certain things, went to Bali,  heartbreak, called off my relationship, i lost two precious persons, i was in a serious illness, but now happily single, struggled with a loss, traveled all over asia and europe and living a nomad lifestyle and been living in my suitcase, met really great people in Jakarta, HK, Bali and Berlin that i now consider my friends and a part of my life, on a quest to be better person….. It was indeed one hell of a ride. Reflecting on 2011 is bittersweet. I celebrate the good and especially the bad. I could not be happier where i am at right now and truly believe that everything happens for a reason and i am meant to be where i am right now. I don’t know what 2012 has in store for me but i’m hoping it’ll be full of love, laughter and happiness.

I love u guys and I celebrate being a part of ur life. I truly feel honored.

A beautiful thing takes place:
the evil as short as the sound.

the snow has abandoned its whiteness,
the touch its body.

in order to make a blood-
bathed body white again,

we have abandoned
our measures & persuasions:

we have afforded ourselves a joy
of being blind, deaf & dumb.

in their newly created lightness
things bounce and never come back.

What can I do, yeah
What can I do when my thoughts when I’m around
you say you assume me
wonder how I feel about, wonder how I think about
Maybe I’ll go away, maybe I’ll go your way..

To you, to me, to my world, to your world
I’m a feel left out when you feel left out
Is it you, is it me, I’m do it by entering your world
I know how to act, I know how to feel
Around you, about you, how do you feel?

Can I wake up next to you?
Will you wake up next to me?
Tomorrow, forever and ever, I don’t know..
Will you stay right here?
Will you go away?
I feel lost, I feel safe
I don’t know where to belong
To you, to me, to my world, to your world
I’m a feel left out when you feel left out
Is it you, is it me, I’ma do it by entering your world
I know how to act, I know how to feel
Around you, about you, how do you feel?

Can I wake up next to you?
Will you wake up next to me?
Tomorrow, forever and ever, I don’t know..
Will you stay right here?
Will you go away?
I feel lost, I feel safe
I don’t know where to belong.

~

Dad.

I don’t know what you want and I don’t know what I have to do with you. Anymore.